Nails For Breakfast, Tacks For Snacks

The night is too harsh,
The stars have gone dark,
Shadows and monsters are marked,
There is nothing left but to run away,
Footsteps fade, they just can't stay,
All the creepy things have come out to play.

Blurb

Singing along to the sounds of the city,
Trying to make the world so much clearer,
It does not really matter if no one can hear,
I am drowning myself with sober thinking.

I'm Lost In A Sea Of Anonymity

Hands shoved deep in your pockets,

Shoulders hunched close for warmth,

Ripped shoes,

Not for fashion mind you,

But warn in from constant use,

They muffle the sounds of the wind.

Your shadow is cast--

Across the sidewalk you are stretched

by the streetlights above you.

Looking for purpose in a velvet night,

Devoid of color scheme

as your shadow is devoid of you.

Cloaked by the disguise of normalcy,

You realize that this is your chance

to be more than the place you are...

But you are gone--

Lost in a sea,

of anonymity.

You're In Love With Love and I'm In Love With You

I am all tied up with words,
My wit is lost in a stumbling lisp,
Rose blush at the mistakes I've made,
I can't help embarrassing myself.
I'm failing and you're my weakness,
To you I'm frequently exposed
to who I am really am:
A beating heart in a body of lies.

With Or Without You

Grab your kleenex and wipe your tears,
Wave goodbye to your firstborn,
Your middle child or your baby.
You might find this suggestion suggestive:
But keep sending your children to war,
We have too many people here anyway.
With them gone you may find more room
in restaurants and malls, colleges and churches,
backlit alleys or bright lit stages.
Finally we have the oxygen we crave,
Now that there are those dying
for an unknown cause and a president who looks
like a baboon.
You may be lucky to get them back whole
in a coffin, if not you can hope that they have
a patch of grass above their unmarked grave.
Send them your prayers and hope,
Maybe they will not fall on deaf ears,
Though the pleas to come home do.

She May Be A Dime

I can be your loser,
your favorite memory,
your familar lips,
and your missing piece.
I can be your failure,
your last touch,
your open eyes,
and your complete incomplete.
I can be your wash-up,
your first idea,
your pretty face,
and your other half.
I can be your waste,
your perfect daydream,
your curvy girl,
and your lasting hope.
I can be yours.

Heartache

Worth more than the credit you gave me,
You are a jackass who deserves little more
than what you decide to dish out.
I hate you more than you know.

The Way We Talk

Lips grazing the microphone,
Sing along for me baby,
A crowd full of pulsing pushing people,
Waiting to be undressed with every verse.
All eyes are on the stage,
Jumping to the beating chorus,
Microphone out to the crowd,
We sing your words back to you.

You Were A Seller But You Couldn't Even Do That Right

Stumbling misplaced footsteps,
You two are gasping for breath,
Murmurs between kisses,
Incoherent pleas for something more,
You do not know his name,
You can barely remember his face.

He is just another in a long line of losers,
You are the girl in your group of friends
that does a little more-
A technical virgin with bendable morals
Looking for your lost respect,
You are losing it more and more.

You seek your happiness in others,
A new hope shot down with every guy that left.

Old Hollywood Glamour

Satin skin and perfumed air,
The possibility in the moments is thick,
She applies that red lipstick
with the hope that it smears on someones collar.
Sliding into the stiletto pumps,
She steps into the lull of laughter,
Scanning the room hoping he sees her
hoping that she gets to see him.
A stagnant moment,
Where are those sparks?
Just for a time it is really to dark...
She cannot believe that he is with her.
Pushing past the pasted perfect people,
Breathing deep in the lungs of her too tight dress,
Stop that shaking lip and think nothing less
than forgetting about this night.
Oh this is heartbreak--
But she went back and smiled through the night,
Even though her eyes shined too bright
for people not to notice her pain.

The Age of Innocence

Ringlets twirling and lollipops slick with saliva,

Tinker toys and fairy dancers that flew

higher than we would have thought we could go.

Dresses with lace and tulip skirts blossoming full

with games of Ring Around the Rosie--

Oh how I wish I ended with a pocketful of posies.

Hold hands and look both ways as we cross streets,

off on field trips to explore new places and things.

Gap toothed smiles and guileless pretty faces

with fairytale dreams and grand imaginings,

Take me back for my memories are sweet.

Sighs.

You have no idea.
I could sit and watch you for hours.
I will laugh at your jokes.
I will smile always.
Just give me the time of day.

You Promised Me

I was born in the school of hard knocks,
I am graduating with nothing more
than some broken bones and a damaged heart.
Don't worry,
I'm on the mend,
Because I will never miss you as much
as how much I miss what we used to be.

Clouds Are Following Me In My Desperate Endeavor

Seeking constant apology of others,
I am never sorrier than I am to myself.
Everyone else deserves their happiness,
I'll step back and watch you take it,
Even when the smile from me is fake.
You are first and foremost above me,
There should not be any other way,
But I wish, somehow, that I could be happy too.

I had a nightmare last night

If I could go back to the way things were,
Maybe I would never leave you again,
Maybe that last call would've been a hello,
instead of a goodbye that I can't take back.
My heart hurts.

I Am Not A Great Friend

I am the knife in the back,
the arsenic and the tears,
I am the silent scream of hate,
the vindictive words that pour.
I am not a great friend.
More likely to hurt you than
to love you, I am not that great.
Insensitive thought and
hurtful words are all I know.
And I am so sorry.

These Roots Have Grown So Deep

We love you in this time-
Of pictures in the hallway,
Of laughs at two in the morning,
Of seeing your face everyday.

You never looked more beautiful-
then under parking garage lights,
then in your sweats and tees,
then when you hugged with all your might.

You were never more unforgettable-
when you sang songs with all of your voice,
when you became a mermaid with me,
when you wouldn't have left if you had the choice.

Life was never more amazing-

than when I gave you my heart,

than when this became our town,
than when we tore this place apart.

I'll be here when you return.

I Am Not Waiting For Anything

Our lives are full of worries,
What decisions we will have to make next,
From school to jobs to our "soul mates",
I just want to live to live.

Just Because I Lack a Title

Give us writers some credit,
But only where it is due,
We say what you think you know,
But this third party perspective
understands more than you.
There is beauty in the deception,
and truth in all the lies,
Our words make more than just a caption,
for your next tshirt or photograph.
The world trickles by as we try
to capture it while it moves,
We can't let reality pass us by,
We must capture it with our pen.

Sunsets Strike Down on Me

A painter's fine hand must have dreamt this up,

with its vibrant colors and striking contrasts,

Ambers and golden streams bleed into one another,

to blushing pinks and darkening oranges.

This is not just an accident of gases in the air,

It was dreamt up by Beauty itself.

The fiery ball of gold- that warms the skin

and the heart- dips below the far off horizon,

Absencing itself from time once again,

Though it continues on somewhere else.

The fleeting moment of perfection is gone,

All that is left is the memory of what was,
Until tomorrow night and we are blessed again.

Daydreaming

The wind rustles the leaves,
winding them around the path,
trunks of trees and Conversed feet.

Sounds in the silence of today,
listening to the words the wind
has to say, each individual beat.

Footsteps echoing and eyes
to see all of the beauty that is
surrounding the soul, filling with heat.

Today is of tomorrow but
different and yet the same,
Whence will the two ever meet?

Feet continue journeying,
walking through the present
until the alarm rings and I am back in my seat.

Go Ahead and Cry Yourself to Sleep & Think How You Hate Me So Bad

I am like a meteor crashing down on you,
Hoping to make an impact on your world,
But out of sight and heart,
It took less time to get me out of your mind.
I am taking my nose out of your business,
Your eyes are closed to me and I seek to do the same,
I am the drama queen who can't seem to move away,
Let me fill my life with distractions and falsified things,
Until I find my reality.

I Promise You I Will Bring You Hope

Delve farther into You-
Mystery and shaded ambiguities.
If I concentrate-on You- it
would distract my mind from
unceasing hurt-churning hurt.
Meditate upon Your Word and
make the One seek You to find me.

Want To Break You Down

Twisting swirling sadness,
I am going down the tubes,
I take it all in but I can never slow down,
This whole time it was not about you,
You're good as gone,
Oh this is over.

Did You Think That I'm Not Worth Your Time

Open sores and oozing pain that I do not deserve nor want,
It took little to no time for you to get over me,
I am glad that I meant so much to you,
Did you think that I am not worth your time?
I can't believe that this affected me so directly,
But the unfairness strikes me to the core as well as
your cold and callous demeanor when it comes to anyone
but yourself. I pray that one day I will be allowed to rid my
heart of pain and my mind of betrayal,
And trust me, I plan on working you out of my life.
I am not one that you should have messed with,
I provide the vindictive poison pen that you lack,
Though you claim to write your thoughts that pertain
to me and how it was all about me
when all I ever thought about was you.
That is no longer the case no matter how much it is wished,
Whatever hopes I had of reconciliation are dashed down my cheeks,
As I cry for what was and I scream for the pain.
You are unfair.

Did It Scream Enough to Make You Cry

Silent whispers down the pane,
Melting diamonds descending,
Incessantly present in all ways,
A waterfall out of a hill,
A lake out of a dip in the road,
Bespeaking the tears of those who cannot,
Melting away the sorrow.
It is it's own release,
No need for others empathy,
Pouring out of the sky as readily
as it pours out of my pen,
So we can move on.

She's Attractive But Bitter

Never feeling more alone than in a group full of people,
I thirst for someone to get, to know, to understand,
A pitiless and bruised individual warrants no love,
But that is all that I seem to be striving to be.
I have a cache of happiness allotted for each day,
Use it up, I'm a faker, I'll use it all on you,
Just to make you believe that my make believe is real.

The Girl's a Straight Up Hustler

What I wouldn't give to be your dancing beauty queen,
With a smile that shines and eyes that twinkle,
Hair long and controlled with skin clear and perfect,
and no body issues or a cynical attitude.
Let us forget that I am me-
With a smile that could use some whitening,
Eyes that have never had much twinkle,
Hair up because it does not want to be controlled,
With my body issues and my cynical attitude.

What I wouldn't give to have you falling at my feet,
Dangling in my snared web of compliments and pretty words.
I'd have you wrapped up in pretended perfection,
While I was precariously perched on the princess pedestal.
The real me is more apt to fumble over words,
Wanting to take back the idiotic thing I said
and replace it with the witty remarks in my mind.
I am liable more to point out your flaws,
because I have never been blinded by pretended perfection.

What I wouldn't give not to need you or your love,
Only keeping you around to bolster my inflated ego,
The sidelines would be your best friend and my fallback,
I'd grant you a kiss as likely I'd grant you a hug.
But I am me, and I need your comfort,
In the form of a long cuddle smelling your cologne,
Realizing that I need love and lots of it though
I desperately search in all of the wrong places.

Don't Speak Liars

Prosecuted for a faith that is as individual
as it is communal, love in many that is.
Ashamed of those who use Scripture as weapons,
drawing blood and tears wherever they may fall.
Hard and hollow because there is no Spirit,
that fills the words and the hearts of its followers.

I want a living faith that I participate in,
one of love and charity, hope and patience,
I will never gossip with you about someone else,
I do not take pleasure in other peoples pain.

Large in number, splintering in its followers,
the faith that is supposed to save many is being taken
for something in which hate can be spewed forth,
it does not deserve a front of false hope,
the real hope I wish you could know.

Uptown Girls Are As Good As Gold Downtown

Another million won't be your fix to mask
the pain that you feel inside, your outside speaks
of riches and of glamour, but you are deteriorating
on the inside, wondering what can make you feel
whole and complete, you're missing your last piece.

Diamonds aren't a girls best friend.

Fake smiles and lying words are all that accompany
you and your days, because who wants you
for you instead of what you can give them.
High in society and crashing on life,
I urge you to seek what makes you best,
instead of settling for all the rest of the garbage.

The wrong comes when the riches possess you.

The Whispers Turn To Shouting

Raise me in silence,
I can never escape the thoughts in my head,
I will fill my life with music and mindless noise,
anything to escape the weighted silence.
Maybe I should enjoy the lack of noise,
But all I can hear are the whispers
of things even I do not understand,
but struggle to unravel.
The thoughts come out,
As much as I try to stifle them,
They come out as words with no aim
to please anyone but themselves.
If they are on paper,
Would that make them have that much more meaning?

But I'm The Only One To Blame

You are just a state of mind my dear,
Fragmented fleeting glimpses,
Of who I wish we were,
Let me just concentrate hard enough,
And wish you away.

Let Me Just Mouth Off About You

Let me swallow my laughter and choke on your smile,
As all the words leave my thoughts and flow out my lips.
I'm the best kind of liar until I tell someone the truth,
And that is this: You will never be enough.

This Is Side One, Flip Me Over

There are those who would be as cruel as me,
My tongue speaks truth and my eyes show pain,
The pen across the page gives the release I crave,
To make sense of the hell that we live in.
My heart forms the words as the ink dries,
Someone is bound to feel the sting.

I warn you against such hurt.

I might as well let you know now,
that I make no apologies,
and maybe that is where the mistake lies,
But I will not take anything back.
I say my words stab like a knife,
I got this way from people using me.

I warn you against such pain.

Drink Down That Gin and Kerosene

I wish I could bury my memories,
But I can't ever forget about you,
You've left your mark oh you can be sure
of that which makes you last.
I almost choke on the senses of you from
your smile to your eyes and the way you dressed
up all of my intentions for life.

I can't drown in my sorrow.

You are my favorite liar
drowning in your bottles of regret.
The emotional scars you gave me are still
red and raw as the day I received them.
I can't forget about you,
But oh how I wish I could.

What can keep me from falling?

You are the noose around my throat.
One false move and I end up like you
with nothing left and little to care.
You were dead before I even got to
know the real you which rescinds
the you at the bottom of every glass.
It all went to hell and I wish I had
been able to tell sooner that I would
never escape the flames you left behind.

I can't drown in your sorrows.

You are my favorite deceiver,
blanketed in your lies.
But I still wish you were here
because I would even take the bloodshot
you over no one at all.
I wish that I could mention that I still hate you.

What can keep me from falling?

I Wish I Was Invisible As You Make Me Feel

Another picture taken with the smile we all
know as you walk off stage after the show and
you'll wake up in the morning
and realize I'm nothing more
than a fangirl who can hold my side
of a conversation without screaming
your name.
I'm the millionth times more face
in the crowd that once more
enjoys your words sang as to
imprint on the mind and never forget
(let me show you out loud)

The blue of my lips to the warmth inside
just to hear your truth
Sing it to me just one last time
(one last time)
I'll suffer the bruises and the
suffocating sides just to hear your truth
just to hear your truth

Stuck in that place of fame on the bucking
white horse and did you know
there are those who think you
cannot do wrong but you know
as well as I you're just as normal
as me though normal may not be what you see.
Your words mean more than actions
they speak of times of knowing as
I have known but you will never know
me because all I am to you is
a fangirl who can hold her side
of conversation without screaming
your name.

The blue of my lips to the warmth inside
just to hear your truth
Sing it to me just one last time
(one last time)
I'll suffer the bruises and the
suffocating sides just to hear your truth
just to hear your truth.

I'll Make Your Past Regret It's Future

Smoke clouds the vision as silent figures move through the day
into the night they are forever vigilant thinking that, just maybe,
they can make this war actually mean something.
A soldier holds his hands in prayer as another shoots
at enemies that have been created, not born.
What is freedom from oppression when another country,
one that is not better than the next despite popular belief,
forces its politics and ideas upon the nation that they have dubbed
in need of saving?
How dare us.
A president who does not deserve to lead, fighting the fight
that does not exist, shoving a burning passion for a war
that is not a war.
Burning flames consume the country, bombs and firearms,
emotions and the heat of the cries of the fallen that will never leave.
Blood on our hands we cry for justice for our men to come home,
but we are the ones who sent them there to "save".
Humanity cannot save itself and we must rely on what is bigger than us,
but who recognizes that humans are not the end all be all?
How dare us.
Do we deserve the freedom that we were born into,
the nation that sees suffering far less than all the rest?
Look into the eyes of a fallen soldiers mother and search into the pain
for a reason for the lives of soldiers falling for the demise of a nation
that we will never be able to fix.
How dare us.

I Want To Hate You (Half As Much As I Hate Myself)

Where did we go?
Lost among the months and years
Friendship that dissolved like antacid
for my heart, it burns.
You used me and abused my emotions
But I loved you still,
Though it kills me to say,
I still wish I had your words jabbing me like a knife.
Did rubbing my heart in the carpet
make me a greasespot in your memories.
I wish for what was,
Though what was is not what is truly.
My eyes clouded like a stormy day,
All thoughts of you were never negative,
though they shoud have been.
I asked where we went,
But there was never a "we" was there?
I was the someone sitting on ice,
wilting and getting freezerburn,
hoping you would pick me, choose me, love me.
Advice for your ear, a smile for your day,
I was never more than that,
And I hate you for it,
But I hate myself more because I did it to myself.

Are You Ashamed of the Light

Hate saturates the darkness,
Deeper into its intensity,
But this allows for those bright points--
Hope--that is like
pinpoints of light in the velvet sky,
Showing that all is not lost,
The world's path has bends and roadblocks,
But you will not lose your footing,
Should you hold on to your hope,
Grasp it as if it is your only hand,
That one choice you get
for redemption.

Ode To The Twilight Series

I'll meet you at Twilight,
When the day blends to night,
The stars come out and
the sun slowly fades into the horizon.
We can watch the New Moon,
Absent in its unearthly beauty,
Let us lay in the grass and breathe deep
as the dew soaks through our clothes.
I'll run through the days and
sleeping unpleasantly in the night,
Longing for you and your sunny warmth,
Blocking out my Eclipse.
Forever is not such a long time,
That is all I am asking for,
And through the Breaking Dawn you become,
My Edward.

Will You Remember Me--Because I Won't Forget You

You're the one that I need,
I'm the one that you loathe,
Because I'm not blinded by your artifice,
Your lives are corrupt and wrong,
I have no need to be an insider.
It's your outside I need,
You are so clear as glass,
I know all of your lies,
Let me be blunt--
If you continue in this way,
You will be undone.
That is the truth,
You say I am full of libel and slander,
I say your ways are corrupt,
I know the truth.
I tell no lies to you,
The only falsehoods to pass my lips,
Are the ones I feed to myself.
What I profess I do not hide
behind an anonymous mask.
My name is Mandy,
I am eighteen,
You are liars and
I have no shame to tell you so.

Wear Me Like a Locket Around Your Throat

Let me breathe in that heady scent,
of disaster and destruction,
of liars and lovers,
of nightmares and dreams.
Oh did you know that you are mine?
My dream that is--
But also my nightmare-
You provide the ink I need,
To make a sword of my pen.
Let me brush past your words,
And get straight to your heart,
Because all your words are lies-
Didn't you know actions speak louder than words?
It pains me to say,
But I rely on you
for all of my creativity-
Because where would I be without you?
It gets old to tell the collapse of myself,
Especially since I have not been built back up,
My acceptance is unnecessary,
All I need to steady myself are your lies.

I'll Be Fine-Even Though I'm Not Always Right

I will run out the door,
Let me jump out the window,
The gas pedal I will floor,
Anything to get me out of this town.
I am sick of everyone knowing all-
Gossip over fences and
who made out with who in the school hall.
Searching for that anonymity,
Big cities and bright lights
don't stifle that sunrise in my veins,
Rushing my soul into its full height,
In my loneliness I have found my home.
You want me to stop being cryptic?
Let me tell you the truth-
I loathe that face in the mirror
and I am seeking a place that does not know me,
In that maybe I can be free.

Oh This is What I Call Sinful Oblivion

Humans are marred by sin,
Scarred by it.
But we can't help but wish for it,
Although we loathe its wit.
It confused us,
Took advantage,
Played on our hurts,
Broke our emotional gage.
But again and again,
We seek it out,
Ask for forgiveness, and
turn around and look for the next hit.
I am a sinner-
About this I make no qualms...
I am prideful and I hate,
I gossip and I judge,
I am rude and I do not care-
I am everything wrong in this world.
But who better
to tell the awful truth of this hateful sin,
Then someone who deals with it always,
And still understands that God loves her-
As crazy as He may be for doing so.

This Is For You Sweetheart

My heart beats rapidly at your touch,
My eyes show what I cannot express.
Sometimes oh it's just too much,
But I have fallen so hard for you.
I miss you so bad when you are away,
But I love having you to miss,
Without you my heart sorely frays,
I long to be with you again.
Let's take a deep breath and make this leap,
Heart first and sanity later,
I hope my feet never touch the ground,
My love for you is obvious.
I close my eyes and see our memories,
I can see where we began,
Trust me, I have never told you lies,
You mean the very world to me.

I Got Your Picture

I have got this sunrise in my veins,
Burning through me with its creativity,
With which I could gain
Aspirations to give life electricity.

Maybe These Clouds Can Become Brighter

Let me fake intelligence for you,
Let me tell you what you want to hear,
Just to let you know, there is no truth,
I'm lying to you, my thoughts are too dear.
Just enough to scrape by,
That is all I have ever seen,
If I actually told you my truths,
Farther back you would lean
into your own lies.
Wrapped around you like a blanket,
Comforting and safe you do not question,
But oh I am sick of watching you fake it.
Little by little your blanket unravels,
Sparse and bare it willl leave you
naked and turned to the present,
Collapsing is all you think you can do.
But as much as it hurts,
I will hold you up,
Let me be your Atlas,
I will be the water in your cup.
You deserve salvation,
Though you never gave me the chance,
Life holds nothing for you now,
It's lies are as a good as a barb and a lance.
Though sometimes I don't think you deserve it,
I cannot stand by and watch you fall,
Though I cannot seem to,
You deserve a chance to stand tall.

Let The Flames Begin

I hate the way I make myself feel,
My mind tears me down,
My heart feels the hurt and can't heal,
I'm getting too small for this town.
You only hold me up like this,
But you don't know who I really am,
I am not one you would miss,
Because I truly don't give a damn.
I know I am just a face in that crowd,
Another confusion to add to the mess,
I've been torn down by insults too loud,
It has broken my spirit I must confess.
I wish I could matter to myself at all,
But I've never had any love left to give,
All I can do is watch myself fall,
Sometimes I have to struggle to want to live.
I have broken myself down,
How can I build myself up,
No way out have I known,
Maybe it's time to forge my own path.

"You're a Falling Star"

It is so hard to go back.
To life and to school,
When I spent so much time
In your heart.
Oh I miss you,
The hole is ripping open again,
Please come back
I need you here.
You make me feel perfect,
And that is not an easy task,
You make everything perfect,
I want you to come back.
But I can't force you,
I can't hold you here,
I wish that I could,
Oh how do I wish I could.
You have your life to lead,
And I have mine,
But the days I get to see you,
Are the ones that I cherish.
Your smell,
Your face,
Your heart,
Your eyes,
The way you love me,
I love it all.

For A Pessimist, I'm Pretty Optimistic

The truth is too bold for you,
You look at me with questioning eyes,
How can I see the world as it is,
Thanks to life I'm just too wise.
I'll force you to see,
Though you struggle with the sights,
Cynicism and realism are the same,
The corset of this facade is just too tight.
We're taught to accept,
Don't ask to many questions,
But oh I have so many,
Let me take the time to mention--
I'm a question in itself.
I do not accept normal truths,
To me they are just lies,
Those who do not question are all fools,
The cause of all the world's sighs.
If you take truth with wit,
Or with a story to cover its meaning,
As long as it comes across to you,
It will come with suffering.
But in that comes growth,
And uncovered truths will force change,
The world will not stay as it is,
I will force you to see.

Alcohol Memories

You loved it more than us.
More than you.
More than life.
Because you wanted to escape,
You left us behind forever.
You did not want to remember,
Your imprint is left on those behind,
They are following in your footsteps,
And now I am the only one remembering.
Too young.
Too hurt.
My childhood was smashed and I was thrust
into adulthood.
Because you didn't love us enough.
You didn't love me enough.
But oh how I miss you,
But hate you at the same time.
The smell lingers in the air,
The bloodshoot eyes haunt my memories,
The slurs permeate my thoughts,
I'm sick of remembering.

Face Down, Fists Up

I'm a hard burned cynic,
I know the world as it is,
Life isn't a Kinkade painting,
Though I don't mean to diss
his ideals. You think you make the rules,
But the world comes with its own,
You succumb to them easier than you know,
Life's perfection is going down.
But if down is where I am going,
I will go down swinging.

Thought

You see but you are blind
You hear but you are deaf
It is not a pretty world
But it is who we are

Here We Go Again

I'm just too serious
You're just delirious
Choke on that drama
That I caught with my camera
I'll move on my dear
But I'll leave you here
Spineless and immature
For once you're not so sure
I'll kill you with words
That's all you deserve
Wrapped up in lies
Like last nights used sheets, oh my
who knew you could go
down so low
You're the one that they loved
But I'm calling your bluff
Not stunned by your false pretense
No there's nothing left to confess
You're in the wrong
Not even worth a line in a song
It's too late to plead
Your turn to follow my lead
So I will kill you with words
For that's all you deserve

Count Me In

You play me like a piano,
What key is it today,
I may be the narrator of my life,
But I do not have a say.
Let me spin you a tale,
Of heartache and tears,
But that is overplayed,
Nothing you want to hear.
But oh my dear,
I may not be famous,
But don't tell me a tale,
You are so shameless.
I will try to find a way,
Don't speak a word,
To make the things that I say,
A little more obvious.
You don't understand,
Your lips move,
But I can't hear a thing,
You misunderstood all of the above,
and you are still trying to fix it.
You are incompetent,
You're down so low,
You still don't know what I meant.

Shameless

Of my own mind
I do not fit in
with the followers
But I do not meld
Pointed out as different
Belittled and persecuted
The struggle to make me fit
into the mold
I broke the mold
I am not the same
I have struggled and discovered pain
Life has not been fair
But I have learned
More than you
I broke the mold

Six Feet Under the Stars

Lie to yourself
Put on that front
Shove the feelings on a shelf
Make it all ok
you can't face it
The pain is too much
But soon the waves will hit
And you will collapse
You think noone knows
But oh they can see
that you put on a show
You are lying to yourself
Laugh it off
But your eyes betray you
They are haunted and your soft
gaze hardens
You harden
until you can't feel anymore

House of Wolves

No
You can't unzip my lips
There's reasons why I'm down so low
I'm never going to let anything slip
out loud
My feelings are mine
I know the hurt they will cause
Not a line
Nothing to make you pause
Farther down I go
Complete corrosion is just around the corner
There's nothing I can do
At my funeral there will be no mourner
crying for me
Battered and bruised
Oh please don't light my fuse
Just watch me implode

The End.

Distance is far between us
But am I still close to you
Oh am I still close
My life made me
But now it is rippng me apart
Ripping us apart
You should just leave me
I am damaged goods
Too broken to forget
Too shattered to move on
But oh am I selfish
I need you to keep me together
Please keep me together
I am falling apart
Breath is impossible
My chest is collapsing in on me
Oh I need to breathe
But where can I find the strength