There Is Beauty In the Breakdown

He saw, and it was good.
Lord cradle us tenderly,
Whisper sweet words on the winds,
Gift us with beauty that cannot be captured,
We rest in Your arms.
The fruit tasted so sweet at first,
But turned to dust in our mouths,
You could have given up on us,
Left us to die, faithfully unquenched,
Instead we still saw light, Your light,
We rely on Your love.
We fell as if a waterfall,
Farther and faster away from Your love,
But never too far out of reach,
You were always ready to scoop us out of the dark,
We trust in Your words.
You have made the road stable,
But those who seek to harm set us up to stumble,
Catch me, catch them, catch us please,
We think we are invincible but we need second chances,
The road to You is not as easy as belief,
We need Your forgiveness.

I Can't Love You

You can read disappointment in her face,
It weighs heavy on her brow,
Pulls down the lips that are meant to smile,
Sadness dulls her eyes, removing the stars.
On edge and starting at the smallest noise,
Hope flares across her countenance,
But then her heart sinks a little further down,
Because hoping has always left her with nothing.

Today I Woke Up and Hated Life

My head is throbbing.
Pulsing intensified since yesterday,
Unable to think of anything else,
I am just glad I can hold up a conversation.
Outer pain connected with emotional,
I massage my neck and rub my temples,
Blessed relief seems so far out of reach,
It is my memories that weigh me down.

I have no allusions about secrecy,
My life is an open book,
I cannot change what has happened,
I can only look towards the future.
But oh how I miss you so,
Happy Birthday Dad.

Forget Yesterday, We'll Make The Great Escape

The dusk has settled heavily leaving the bruised night,
Absently thumbing the grasses underneath her arms,
Eyes closed, she sighs heavily and turns her eyes to the sight
of the stars glittering in the velvet black.

Her day was different than those she has had before,
Just when she thought that she was trapped in Hell,
She found that even Hell could have a trap door,
It was only a matter of time till things would change.

She knew not when life would bring her back to this place,
But the memories would stay for all of her days,
Her thoughts could weigh her down at a rapid pace,
Now was the time to put her plan into action.

Stiff from the lack of movement her body screams,
But she rises slowly, moving with utter conviction,
Pacing quickly into the house, grabs the bags that hold her dreams,
And moving quickly as to leave no trace, leaves the house behind.

They have made her this way, bitter and always unsettled,
The warm night air tangles her hair down her back,
Dragging her fingers through it she pauses, heedful
of all noise following her in her stead.

Her eyes are fierce and her back is ramrod straight,
No one will ever think to demean her again,
Halting, her steps have finally led her to the gate,
A new day is dawning and she only has one chance to go.

Jumping the fence she continues on without a backwards glance;
It wouldn't be the first time that she has been alone.

It's Higher And We're Scared To Death

The spring rain lightly sprinkles across their bright smiles
as he laughs deeply spinning her around, both grinning
they stumble together, falling to the ground,
fingers lace tightly as they face each other, giggles subsiding.
They make the shape of a heart, involuntarily,
she reaches out and strokes his cheek as he leans forward and seeks
her mouth, a light movement of a deeper meaning, he keeps
her close in his heart as he always has but now it is different, momentous.
His lips brush her ear as her eyes fall shut, the words causing her to flush
rosy pink, the sparkle grew in her eyes as her heart knew his truth.

"I love you"

We All Roll Along

We're all fine and you're still mine,
Though maybe this is the end of calling it pretend,
You say you want change and I say you have lost hope
of coming in range.
Really.
My soul is twisted,
So is my fist and the thought that you're first on my list,
Keeps me moving forward despite all the things I heard,
Some things--they never change.

Yeah You'll Be A Part of Me

It seems as if I am alone now,
Walking up the stairs,
I realized I had no one-
because the one I always talked to was you.
Wiping salty tears off my cheek,
I listen to you tell me it is all my fault,
The real you died a long time ago,
Alcohol has twisted up up and pulled you apart.
I remember your smiles,
Cuddled close to your heart,
That was how it used to be,
All I hear now is the constant yelling.
This cannot be the end,
Stomach churning and chest heaving,
I mourn for what has been lost,
Your self respect and my last shred of innocence,
I am worth more than you said I am.